When I embarked on this journey to surgically correct my Crohn’s disease, I was apprehensive but felt good about the procedure. The procedure didn’t go as planned, but I was still positive and knew it would be a longer road.  Now I am in the hospital almost two weeks and am trying very hard to find a light at the end of the tunnel. I know the light is there and I will be able to feel the sun on my face and not just look at the window at it.  It is tough to be hear for so long when I expected to be here a week.  My target date to go home has come and gone and now I am back to square one. I was eating a full liquid diet, but know am back to just total nutrition and ice chips.  I try not to eat a lot of ice chips because then I have to go to the bathroom a lot which is an ordeal.  I have an abscess which then I had to get a drainage tube placed.  Not fun at all.  I just want to go home.  I cried today really hard after seeing my family.  It is so hard to see  the boys and not be able to really hug them.  I get stressed when I am around them especially now that I have a drainage tube.  I just have to get through this and know I can.  I need a  lot of prayers.  I try to keep my own prayers up and try very hard to keep my own spirits up.